Maybe you currently have no deep relationships. Or maybe your relationships are so deep you're drowning in them. In both cases, you have misplaced your worship. You can find it again in the garden: Not my will, but yours, God. His will is to lead us to the green pastures and still waters of His love and care. His will is to give us good gifts and good traveling companions. His will is that love wins in our lives. If love is not winning in your life, then you are not living from the Words of his mouth. I encourage you to walk away from whatever has its hooks in you and come to the waters of repentance. Let the Spirit wash over you and the fire of forgiveness burn away all fears of punishment. The Spirit will lead you back to God, each minute of each day, as you stay in constant contact.